Illumination

自分の気のせいかもしれないんだけど最近のBLCDは前より質がちょっと落ちた気がします。でも！先々週聞いたこの「HONEY」はとても気になりました！2枚組みなので内容もとても小説に忠実し、キャストも言うことなくよかったです。今回は珍しく攻めより（もちろん攻めの杉田さんもとっても魅力でしたけど）受けの下野紘さんの演技に感動しました。記憶をなくした幼い感じのシオをかわいく、普通の時の史緒の生意気さもよく演じられたと思います。そして本人もフリートークでおっしゃいましたけど、最後の告白の時本当に感動しました。あたしも思わず涙を流しながら聞きました。作品として演じる人と聞く人も同時に投入できる作品なのでおすすめです。

レーティング：★★★★☆

 

The white light shines into my eyes, almost blinding them. I tried to cover them up, but my arms wouldn't move. Slowly, in the mist of light, I saw lines. Blurred lines, forming shapes, then the lines became firm lines, and I could see forms. I tried to turn my head, I couldn't move a muscle. I was like a statue, made to see what I have to see. After like a TV warmed up, ready-tuned, I saw colors. It was the color grey. When finally the colors came clear, I could move. I found myself lying on the floor, looking up at a grey ceiling. There was a light bulb on the ceiling. So, that was the source of light. How could such a small light bulb give out such an amount of light?

It all started in darkness. I saw nothing, I though i opened my eyes, but there was nothing. Nothing is a hard word to explain. To me, it contains no colour, no noise, no space not even myself exsist. One rarely has the chance to experience "nothingness", although this word is used in our daily vocabulary. I tried to concentrate, and then, I heard it. Faint noises. Not people talking, but pure sound. The sound was like a train running, like I was on a running train. The sound came louder and louder, and louder. I had a strange feeling to run away from the sound, and that was when i saw light. I never knew light was white. It is almost strange when you can describe the nothingness as blackness and the sudden light as white. Everything could be so visual, eventhough i'm not even sure whether I exist. Once I saw the white line right in front of me, it seems like someone just pulled up the curtains and let in bright sunlight. Everything went from black to white.

Contradictions.

All started with white, but then everything went black.

I saw sparkles but then realise them as hell fire.

I see paper bags and shopping faces, I see fading souls and crying faces.

I see nothing. I see everything.

I don't want to see anything, I see everything.

I want to escape, there is no escape.

I never wanted to know, yet I had to know.

To see or not to see

To believe or not to believe.

To live, or .

 

つかまえるものなら何でもいい。

現実でも幻でもいい。

ほしい。何か信じられるもの。